Saturday, October 08, 2005

Self discovery...

I know... it's been a long time since the last post...

Mainly because I've been trying to do my assignment which is due in 3 weeks time. I don't want to leave everything til' last minute. I need to allocate time to revise for my exams too... I am not a fan of exams, but usually it means holidays after the exams. So that's something worth looking forward to.

Secondly, I've been reading a lot of comics these few days. You know comics are so addictive... I think I'm hooked... I just finished reading CHOBITS, which I rate 8 out of 10 because of the abrupt ending. It's a story between Human and computers. The computers were manufactured to be human like. It's a nice plot... But the ending did put me off a little. I'm reading something else now... It's about this girl who's so in love with a guy that she disguised herself to enrol in the boy school that the guy is in... Interesting one, but yet to finish... There are like 23 volumes, I'm only at 5... and exams and assignments are tapping their feets...

Finally... and most importantly... My home's connection is driving me nuts. It's suppose to be BROADBAND... but it's working like a friggin' 28k... It's so blardy slow... Coming online means vomitting blood these days. People (who are well-versed in the IT arena) tell me that it's because of the bandwidth that are used up by the other housemates who are downloading stuffs. It's not like I pay less for the internet connection, but why do I get the feeling that I'm being 'short-changed'?

Anyway... That's not the topic today... The topic today is 'Self Discovery'.

People say that studying abroad is a journey to self discovery and a big adventure awaiting to be unfold...

I quite agree with that...

After coming to Aussie, I realise a lot of things about myself. For example, I didn't know I can cook or bake or even make desserts before coming over. But now, I'm actually enjoy cooking dishes, and making non-fattening and low sugar desserts. I'm even learning how to bake nowadays. I've just got the recipe for 'Tiramisu' from my friend, am going to learn hot to do that before I go back to Singapore. I've promised someone that I'm going to bake HER a cake... a TIRAMISU cake...

Following the revalation in the previous para, I'm going to make a statement about my self discovery...

Here goes,

I discovered that I have the potential to be a housewife. I love to do household chores. I like to wash clothes, hang clothes, iron clothes, vacuum the carpet, wash the toilets, etc. I know this doesn't sound like me... But it's true... I hope to become a full time housewife someday. Go jogging in the morning, stay at home and make sure it's spick and span, do the groceries, make breakfast for everyone, go shopping, shake leg, watch HK tv series, read comics, make dinner... Where got not SHIOK, you tell me la...

Apart from my passion to be an aspiring social worker, a saviour to the universe, I, PIGLET CHEN, want to be an aspiring and intelligent contemporary housewife. I don't want to be those housewife who are submissive and listen to everything the husband says, tolerate domestic violence, nor the kind who is an ivory tower to their children.

Maybe because I'm a virgo, I like everything to be in place. Neatness is the key to my soul, and so is being perfect. I'm not demanding on other people, more demanding on myself. I won't tell someone off if their table resembles a war zone, but I will get cranky when my table is in mess. I will pack everything and make sure everything is in place... When do I know it's time to pack? When I start to not be able to find my things I guess... I going to sound like a freak but... I make sure that the files in which I keep my school stuffs are 'colour coded'. Eg. Research is Green, Law is Purple, etc... I just find it easier for me... I like to be organised, to be prepared... That is why I have a study time table for exams, a weekly assignment timetable.

I guess, I still have a long way to go in terms of understanding myself... Apart from the theoretical perspective that I've acquired from my social work course that explains human behaviours, placing myself out of my 'safety zone' has really widen my horizons. These are precious life exprerience that not everyone can access.

Thankful, but at the same time, brings out the realist in me... Optimism... You've got to work harder...

Posted by Piglet at 12:43 AM

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